Saturday, December 6

All I want for Christmas...


There's someone special i love...

i've known and loved him for 40 years...

but he's there and i'm over here...and he doesn't know how much i miss him.

he's gone quiet...silent and still...and i let him go...no calls or texts, i just respected his silence and watched him drift away.

i think of him each and every day...thoughts i want to share, stories that would make him laugh and my sense of dorkiness that makes him smile.

he doesn't know about this blog, so i'll quietly say this to him here...

all i want for Christmas is you...




Sunday, October 26

I'll be seeing you...



i'm so excited!...i'm going to Arizona on Nov 10th to stay with my best friend for about a week...i live far away from her in Washington State and we don't get to see each other very often!

I don't think i've mentioned before that i'm an amputee.  It's a BKA (below the knee amputation).  I get by just fine with a wheelchair and a prosthetic leg.  i'll be "on my leg" for as long as possible starting with my plane ride there...

my amazing twin daughters are scared for me....afraid people will be mean to me...they are so adorable!  i tell them that everything will be just fine but they don't have a good feeling about the flight and really don't want me to go.  i wish they could come with...we would have so much fun with all of us together!

my best friend 'Nae is the best woman i know.  She is kind, generous, loving, giving, so supportive and so fun to be around.  i love you, 'Nae!

we have been best friends since the 4th grade!  we met at church and have been very close for a long time...

this will be the first time i have traveled this far in the U.S....

i love traveling! 

i love seeing new places and beautiful scenery - especially places with waterfalls...and there are many places in Europe i'd love to explore (i want to spend some time in Paris most of all!)

maybe one day....

i just want to say thank You, Father, for this opportunity to travel and be with my beloved best friend...please bless our fellowship together and the precious time we have with one another...i love you, Father.....Your daughter, lil ole me...

thanks everyone for stopping by and may God bless you all!

Wednesday, April 2

Ever thine...

 

for those of us who love someone and are loved in return -
measure for measure,
we can call ourselves blessed...

for those of us who love someone who does not love us back -
if we've truly given of ourselves,
we can live without regret...

and for those of us who love only ourselves -
in the end,
we are the lonely ones...

for myself,
i'd rather love with all my heart and be turned away -
than never take the risk at all...







Saturday, March 22

a little change of plans!



so it's that time of year again - when I'm officially a little older. 

my children and i were going to see Seattle again like we usually do around my birthday...but...we went to Leavenworth instead!

I've never seen it and just before we left we decided to see a place I've never been to!

It's a completely charming town with friendly faces everywhere we went...we found a shop that's just for and about Christmas and I got some beautiful sparklies from there for my b-day!

My children truly spoil me for my birthday and each year I am both grateful and amazed for all they do to make my day special! 

I do have a special birthday wish that hasn't yet come true...I wish to ride in a hot-air balloon...it would be like flying and I wish for it with all my silly heart :)        maybe someday...

a special thank you to my beautiful, amazing children who i could clearly never deserve!

and of course, to my amazing Father God, for making me feel loved and special on my birthday each and every year...i love You dearly...your soon to be older daughter, elaine ;)

Monday, February 3

the new year...

 I'd like to ring in the new year romantically :) ...a glass of something bubbly, Old Lang Syne playing in the background and a special kiss to remember...

That's not what usually happens, lol...

I celebrate the new year with my children and it is always special in a different way...so grateful for their love and companionship...I am so blessed to have these amazing children...soo blessed!

But the best thing about the new year is the fresh start it affords us...A clean slate and a time for new beginnings...putting the missteps behind us and standing up again to walk then to run...hoping to hit our stride in 2025.

I never make new years resolutions because i think they're too flimsy and fragile and easily broken.

instead i make prayer requests to the Father...asking for help to change the flaws in my character, to make me a better mom, daughter and friend.

I vow to value time as never before...never forgetting how brief this life is, I don't want to waste one more minute on the trivialities and distractions, rather, I want to appreciate all the people i love and spend my time wisely and give my love to those around me without reservation...spending each day as if it were my last...

time is short, our lives are fleeting so don't waste time today...tell the people you love that you love them, hug a friend or relative and let them know you care...give of your time and money to those in need while you can still make a difference in the people around you...strangers and friends alike.

I tell the people i love that i love them...I never forget to let them know...because i know how quickly we are here and then gone and what it truly means to cherish them each and every day...while we can...how about you?...is there someone you should call and simply say i love you...telling them how much they mean to you?

the clock is ticking and unstoppable so let's truly value one another and not be afraid to reach out...don't let these moments pass you by...

one of my absolute favorite songs is by Tim McGraw and it's called "Live Like You Were Dying"...I'll close this post with the lyrics to his song...feel free to press play to hear this song!  God bless each and everyone of you and thank you so much for stopping by!

He said
"I was in my early forties
With a lot of life before me
And a moment came that stopped me on a dime
I spent most of the next days
Looking at the x-rays
Talkin' 'bout the options
And talkin' 'bout sweet time"
I asked him
"When it sank in
That this might really be the real end
How's it hit you
When you get that kind of news?
Man, what'd you do?"
 
He said
"I went skydiving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fumanchu
And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying"
And he said
"Someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying"
 
He said
"I was finally the husband
That most of the time I wasn't
And I became a friend a friend would like to have
And all of a sudden going fishin'
Wasn't such an imposition
And I went three times that year I lost my dad
I finally read the Good Book, and I
Took a good, long, hard look
At what I'd do if I could do it all again
And then
 
I went skydiving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fumanchu
And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying"
And he said
"Someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying
Like tomorrow was a gift
And you've got eternity
To think about
What you'd do with it
What could you do with it
What did I do with it?
What would I do with it?
 
Skydiving
I went Rocky mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fumanchu
And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I watched an eagle as it was flying"
And he said
"Someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying"