my precious Ernzy...

my beloved brother took his life yesterday...
i cannot describe the pain of knowing that i will not see my brother until the day Jesus returns...i would have given anything, Ernzy, to take away your pain, to give you joy just once more -
but i will see you again, my Ernzy...i will see you again.
meet me at the Gates, Ernzy, i'll have my arms open and the largest smile on my face.

your lainey for always and always...

{first my Father kills himself in 1979, then my beloved Ernzy just last Friday...oh Abba, i never thought that i'd lose Ernzy too...Father, please help us all and especially Mom...losing her only son...help us, Abba...we need You}

Dedicated to me and my family, by ttt...for our terrible loss of Ernzy

"Lonely Day"
{by SOAD}

Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
And its mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived

For Ernzy...

{Dedicated to my beloved brother, Ernzy...may Abba draw near to you and bless with both courage for today and hope for tomorrow...i pray that your sorrow will once more be turned to joy in days ahead of us...i love you so dearly, Ernzy...just hold on, my brother, hold on...}

{And in loving memory of S. DePonty
~2/08/2006~
your struggles are finished and your time has come,
i pray your soul finds peace and rest at long last.
in memory of you, S...
until we all meet again.}