something about Ernzy...

today i start bereavement counseling to try and survive without my beloved brother, Ernzy...
O, God, i miss him so
i'd give anything to just have one more moment with him
i was not all i should have been to him while he was alive
i failed him at times, i know this...

thank you all for your continued prayers and support, they mean more than you know...

love,

laineyrose

Everybody hurts...REM

"When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go,
'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong.
Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life,
well hang on
'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries.
And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes.
So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts.
You are not alone. . ."

"He makes everything beautiful in it's time"

i would like to thank all those who've been so kind and loving towards me and my family as we are just trying to get through each day...finding our way through this time of grieving.
i would also like to thank Abba for all He's done...Abba, i have faith that you will somehow make all of this "beautiful in it's time"...i love You, my Father-my Strength-my very Life...

thank you all again for your continued love and prayers,

Laineyrose

my precious Ernzy...

my beloved brother took his life yesterday...
i cannot describe the pain of knowing that i will not see my brother until the day Jesus returns...i would have given anything, Ernzy, to take away your pain, to give you joy just once more -
but i will see you again, my Ernzy...i will see you again.
meet me at the Gates, Ernzy, i'll have my arms open and the largest smile on my face.

your lainey for always and always...

{first my Father kills himself in 1979, then my beloved Ernzy just last Friday...oh Abba, i never thought that i'd lose Ernzy too...Father, please help us all and especially Mom...losing her only son...help us, Abba...we need You}

Dedicated to me and my family, by ttt...for our terrible loss of Ernzy

"Lonely Day"
{by SOAD}

Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
And its mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived

For Ernzy...

{Dedicated to my beloved brother, Ernzy...may Abba draw near to you and bless with both courage for today and hope for tomorrow...i pray that your sorrow will once more be turned to joy in days ahead of us...i love you so dearly, Ernzy...just hold on, my brother, hold on...}

{And in loving memory of S. DePonty
~2/08/2006~
your struggles are finished and your time has come,
i pray your soul finds peace and rest at long last.
in memory of you, S...
until we all meet again.}

the Choice...

as always,

Abba Father watches and waits to see whether we accept or reject His ways,

His guidance and His Son...

and as always, the choice lies with us.

it's a simple choice that changes everything the moment we make it.

in just an instant we can be closer to our true Home, our Everlasting Father and Brother Divine.

so, if you were asked, "whom do ye serve?" - what would you say? . . .

because He lives,

laineyrose

For those Mom's...

 is truly one of the most amazing women anyone could ever know ~
and though this birthday tribute is late, it was as true then as it is now...}

"YOU ARE"
there are girls
who grow up with quiet dreams
in desperate homes
wanting more than anything
to just be loved...

there are young women
who dream of love
and of marriage
wanting more than anything
to just be seen for who they are...

there are mothers
who dream of happiness
wanting more than anything
to just be a strength for their children...

there are women
who dream of healing
wanting more than anything
to just turn back the clock...

for one more day - just one more hour
to do all the things they've dreamed of
to stop the wanting
to be free from pain
and to know that they are:

real
valued
brave
hope-givers
life-sustainers
admirable
undaunted
fearless
approachable
forgiving
forgiven
forbearing
accomplished
redeemed
precious &
priceless.

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