cozy corners...

 

i decided to try my hand at drawing...

they're probably total rubbish but they were soo much fun to do...

i don't mind that...

failing...

i just love the challenge of trying something new...

venturing out into unfamiliar waters...

{i would like to say in my defense that they are much better in person!}

i'd much rather put myself out there, 

try something i'm totally new at 

and if i fail at least i didn't tuck myself into a safe and cozy corner and say that is that.

i tell myself that that's not really living, is it?

that's not being brave, is it?

that is total rubbish..

we need to be brave today for tomorrow is promised to no one.

For Ernzy...

 each of us leave our mark on this world as we depart from it, changing events and the people around us whether we realize it or not.

i did not realize how indelibly imprinted i had become by my brother's life.
his love, unique laugh and sense of humor, his passion for music and his deepest desire to just be loved.
like the "butterfly effect" & "chaos theory", ernzy's actions, his "ripples in a pond" changed my life forever and i still cannot believe he is gone.

he was such a vibrant man...i wish you could have known him...i wish he would have stayed.
maybe one of the great lessons in all of this is to realize that whether we believe it or not...we all matter.
we all make a difference, for the better or for the worse...
and in the end it's important to understand that we all need each other to simply carry on.

if you can see this, ernzy, i love you so very, very, much, and i want you to know i know that you made a difference in this world...your life mattered here - and you matter still.

your life changed mine forever, ernzy...what a beautiful gift you will always be.